There’s a monkey on my back who has a penchant for distracting me from what I need to do. This monkey carries my bag of emotion and tries to control me by bringing out the wrong emotion whenever I need to pursue something or whenever I need to overcome a challenge. For example, whenever I need to be disciplined about losing weight, it brings out the lazy. Whenever I need to be determined about accomplishing something, it brings out the doubt. When I need to be courageous, it brings out fear. This monkey has distracted me for so long that it hindered me from being my best and bringing out my full potential. This bag of emotion that it carries, it has a name; it’s called excuses. It never runs out of contents.
For the longest time, it controlled me. I allowed all the excuses. I came up with all sorts of lame excuses like, I’m not ready, it's not yet time, I might fail, or deny its urgency. There was no battle between me and the monkey on my back. I was a willing accomplice… until lately.
I’ve decided to train my monkey to bring the wrong emotions back in the bag. It’s not easy. This monkey can be quite insistent. When there are failures in the office, the monkey brings out the blame and at times I would look for targets of that blame. I am training my monkey (yes present tense) to bring the why out of the bag instead of the who because I realize that if I am to change the outcome, I need to go into problem solving and not blame placing. For a number of days now, I managed to walk 6 kilometers to exercise and manage my weight. Every morning, when I wake up, my monkey would point out that my legs and muscles hurt, that maybe I should give it a day’s rest and just do it the next day. In the first few days, I would sit for a minute and consider what the monkey is saying then dispute it.
I’m happy to report that I am learning to ignore the monkey on this issue. I realize that when I dispute what this monkey is telling me, the monkey gets tamer.
Will I ever lose this monkey? Perhaps not. But I want to continue training this monkey so it knows which emotion will help me in getting my stuff done. I will continue training it to shut up when I have to focus on a goal or a task.
We all have monkeys on our back. They want to be in control and derail us by showing us the wrong emotions. Don’t let your monkey take over.